Wedding in hindsight

Now that the wedding and all the stress is mostly in the rearview, I would like to chat about my experience. I love that I am married to my person now, I love him to bits. However, I feel like I lost some hair due to stress.

I tried to plan for every possible outcome and failure, and yet I was still late to my own wedding, about an hour I was supposed to be there at 430 or so but did not arrive until almost 530pm. The ceremony was supposed to start at 5pm, It could have been much worse, but my friend is a wonderful driver and got us there healthy and without panic attacks.

Once I arrived I had a moment of panic, am I really getting married right now? Is this the best decision given my student loans? However, I took a deep breath, thought about all the things I love in my partner, and marched down the aisle(not sure it looked like a march given the fact that I do not regularly wear heels and twisted my ankle the day before, but details).

I lost my vows, the rings were left in my bag, and part of the wedding party was super late, but at the end of the day I did my best with my vows, cried, and married my person. After the wedding was over I felt so many things, relief, joy, frustration, over tiredness, and social anxiety. I needed to take a minute to just be with my husband and breath. I highly recommend taking fifteen minutes for just you and your partner to process and be in love before taking photos.

The reception was beyond words! The food was perfect, the chef worked with all our dietary restrictions and allergies. The decor was romantic and tasteful. It was heavenly, until my hubby tried to fall asleep in his dessert plate.

At the end pf the day I now have my husband and we may just be more obnoxiously in love. Coming next is our honeymoon!

Guinea Pig Update

Our lovely senior citizen guinea pig continues to have chronic health issues from his past teeth issues and age. He has very little appetite. The only thing he will voluntarily eat are alf alfa sticks by vitakraft.

He continues to be underweight but has stopped daily loses, but no gains. He has a follow up next week to make sure his teeth are not growing too much.

Surprisingly he ate well while my husband and I were on our honey moon! More on that in my next post!

Pet critical illness

Hello All,

I’m sorry I have not been around as much. Our new fur children, specifically the boy was much sicker than we originally thought. Things have been up and down and we still are not sure if he will make it.

He had an emergency vet visit this past Thursday and they booked him in for a teeth grinding for the next morning. We saw some improvement from Friday- Sunday. However, his weight started dropping rapidly on Monday. My partner has been getting up early and I have been staying up late to give him force feedings of critical care. We have an urgent call into our vet for recommendations.

Right now it is a wait and see situation and we are not sure what is happening. We also may need to keep him under veterinary observation while on our honey moon next week.

Piggie Update

Hello all!

So we brought the new little ones home today. Just like the last two we rescued these two and all their belongings stunk to high heaven of perfume.

They have both received loving, bath, and brushes. The boy loves me, and bit my partner when he tried to pick him up. The girl loves my partner and shakes when I hold her.

The girl ate for over an hour straight when she came home and is a bit skinny. The male is in bad shape. He has an upper respiratory, over grown front teeth, dry flakey skin, under weight, and gooey eyes.

We have started him on our normal upper respiratory treatment and he will be going to the vet next week for a teeth trimming.

Wish us luck!

Small Wins- A bonus Post

This is my make up post for missing 10/20, I fully intent to have 31 posts by the end of Blogtober!

I have been advocating, and self-caring my brains out lately. I have negotiated and pleaded with doctors and medical/prescription insurances. After almost four weeks on phentermine I have lost 12 pounds. This is a huge win for me. I have been 325-3335 pounds since 2015 when thy thyroid started under producing hormones. The year before I was 233 pounds, so one little thing, left undiagnosed caused me to gain 100 pounds.

While I have not been able to notice the difference in the mirror, my pants are a little loose in the thigh area, and my shirts fit a little better. It is my hope this keeps working and I am down to a safe weight soon.

I will keep everyone posted on my Journey!

An Agonizing Decision

If you all remember almost a year ago John and I picked up two Guinea Pigs, Bellatrix and Elvira, after Whiskey passed away. Their home was less than ideal. They were bathed in perfume=y shampoo which is bad for sensitive guinea pig lungs. I tend to treat my guinea pigs like one would an asthmatic child, no extra smells, and no dust particles if possible.

We brought them home, bathed them in sent free shampoo to get rid of the smell, trimmed their over grown nails, and loved them as much as we can. They are still not fans of people all the time. Sometimes they run away and make agitated noises, but they do let us give them cuddles several times a week.

Four weeks ago the women who sold us these two babies contacted me. Apparently she is now allergic to all guinea pigs, not just the long hair guinea pigs. She said that since we have taken such good care of Bella and Ellie that she would like us to take her other two guinea pigs. My gut was screaming no, but my heart feels so bad for these little ones. Then she said they were five years old. Guinea pigs only live 5-7 and at five years old they become labeled as seniors and need special care.

in the hopes of transparency I told my partner. Who immediately said no, then I told him how old they were. Which turned into how soon can we get them. I lost it, I don’t know if we can do this. It is so much responsibility. We are getting married in under two months. I relented after he explained that those sesniors need our love and they won’t be with us long. I pushed off meeting the woman to pick them up until this weekend. But as of tomorrow we will have two more little ones.

I will get pictures and details to you all once they settle in.

Love and Light,


Black Cat Appreciation

*Bonus Post since I missed posting yesterday*

My Black cat appreciation post is a day late. Sorry there was a power outage in my area, so my laptop was not charged. When I saw the first picture of Severus I knew I wanted him to come home with me! He was so young that I did not know if he was a boy or a girl so i picked the name Morgana for a girl and Severus for a boy. I totally missed the chance to call him Salem. He is such a goofy, dramatic soul that reminds me of Salem from the Sabrina the Teenage Witch Sitcom.

I love you little one even if you love dad more!

Severus- “What do you want mom, I am waiting for dad to come back and snuggle me.”

Severus- “Totally ignoring you now you don’t have treats”

Social Work Licensing Renewal

Hello Dear Readers!

This year was my licensing renewal year, which I was hoping to avoid and instead obtain my independant licensure. However that was not meant to be right now.

In renewing my license I realized I could provide some tips for easy renewal

  1. Make sure your computer or laptop has good power and internet access
  2. Make sure you organize your certificates into piles. For me, I sort by what is considered an in person credit, a not in person credit, and ethics.
  3. Always have a few extra CEU’s- This year I was in a time crunch so I only had 1.5 extra I can prove. I have a bad habit of taking extra CEU’s then forgetting to download the certificate of attendance. I typically try to have 5 extra hours. I am mildly terrified of being audited, even though I have done my work.
  4. Have something to drink near by- the process can take time and I recommend being hydrated

Decade old medical gaslighting

I have suffered from a skin condition called eczema my entire life. The worst patches have always been on my arms, scalp, and trunk.

For years I used oatmeal baths, elidel, hydrocortisone creams, and hydrating lotions to combat the red itchiness that came every spring and fall like clock work. In recent years, my shoulders and scalp have been the areas that break out when I am stressed. So wedding planning has been a joy.

When I was in 7th grade I went to my primary cares office for my yearly here is my eczema, please refill my prescription trip. This particular year the two doctors in the practice I saw were all booked up. The third doctor was someone we avoided unless there was no other choice.

This year was a no other choice year. I went in with my mom, had my weight, height, vitals, ect done after a several hour wait. The doctor comes in, listens to my concerns, then informs me the elidel I have relied on since I was young was “taken off the market” due to “severe” side effects. The main one was “thinning of the skin”.

While I was at my dermatologist last week she was checking out my scalp and skin. Said she would send in some prescriptions and hopefully after the wedding my flare up would end. I mentioned in passing that I used to use elidel but an old doctor told me they no longer make it. Which is sad given it works so well.

My doctor gave me a puzzled look and said they still make the medication it’s just not made under the brand name anymore.

I have been suffering under flairs withe little relieve because topical steroids are frown upon by my doctors. For years, I have not had this medication since I was 13 because I never asked again. I am now almost 30 and I just found out I was lied to all those years ago.

My mind is blown.

Spooky Season Bucket List

I’m not sure if a spooky season bucket list is a thing but I’ve now made it a thing!

1. Masked ball- My prom was masquerade “themed” but there were no masks. I have always wanted to go to a masked ball. The ball gowns, lights, decor, Venetian masks. I’m all about the vampire aesthetic at these things!

2. Trick or Treating- my parents didn’t let me trick or treat after first grade. Every year they came up with reasons for why I had been “bad” so I could not go. The real reason came out later that my mom didn’t want to pay for or take time to get make up and costumes. So she came up for perceived slights or “back talking” every year to ban me from it. Some day I hope to take my own kids trick or treating

3. Six flags- Six flags tends to have a horror themed October and I would love to go once COVID is gone

What is on your spooky bucket list?